Moody Weekend

I have been looking forward to last weekend as CX and I intend to go HDB Hub to enquire about flats availability for housing estates in the East. To our disappointment, we were informed that there will not be any new projects in the East except the DBSS project coming up in Tampines this Oct. Moreover, walk-in selection will only be available for Sengkang/Punggol in Oct as well. Since we are left with not much of a choice, we have decided to go for both choices, whichever comes first. Though I am not very keen on staying in Sengkang/Punggol, I really hope to build our very own home soon.

More Bad News

CX’s brother has upset me greatly this weekend. His sister has also added to my frustrations by confirming the reality that when it comes to money matters, even your closest kin will shun away from lending a helping hand. Although it served his bro right that she is not going to give him any financial help, she should at least try to discuss some possible solutions to the dilemma CX is facing. On our way home last Sunday, I was so upset that I started crying on my way home from his sister’s place. I was crying because I could feel CX’s frustration and his anxiety yet there is nothing I can do to lessen his problems......

Finally!

Departure on 07 Sep 06

Finally, the long awaited day has arrived…..my departure to Taipei! This is the 3rd time Caixin (CX) and I are going to Taiwan for holiday. Currently, Taiwan is our favourite holiday destination. Nice food, nice shopping, nice scenery, nice transport system, nice people……

The Unexpected is coming!

Arrived at our hotel at about 1930 and managed to check in only at 2030. Usual routine, checking out the room, the toilet, wardrobe etc.

What are you doing? I started to ask CX as he was kneeling by his luggage for some time already. He answered, “Nothing.” “Then why is he there wasting time.” I thought. However, I soon dismissed the thought and began to figure out the TV channels while sitting on the bed. CX was still kneeling beside the bed.

I started to ask if he is ready to go out. He was still kneeling by the bed. He asked me to come nearer and said he has something serious to ask me. OH NO! It can’t be! He wouldn’t have the chance to buy a ring without my knowledge.

The Proposal

He took out a small brown box and placed it in front of me. At this point of time, I really couldn’t think straight. I’m surprised with myself when I can still jokingly asked if it was a necklace when I knew exactly what was inside that plain looking brown box. He asked in mandarin, “ Huang Ziting xiao jie, will u marry me?” Seriously, I didn’t know what to answer. I started to cry and kept asking, “Why?” Crying out of joy or fear? Fear……the thought of getting married really makes me very very scared (Sorry Dar). I really want to spend the rest of my life with this person but on the other hand, I just couldn’t imagine myself getting married. What is wrong with me??

Acceptance

The ring was lovely! What more can I ask for. Although the proposal did not take place in Disneyland as I’ve wanted, neither was it romantic, I knew I cannot reject him. After 4 years 10 months of courtship, we have to go towards somewhere. He was still holding on to the ring while I was in a state of shock and confusion. He asked if I didn’t want it, I answered, “Of course I want!” Suddenly, I’ve got this strange feeling that my life is not going to be the same anymore.

Right or Wrong?

My third day not working...

This sudden thought came over me on my way home from the market. Have I made the right decision on leaving my previous job? I imagine myself to be in the office working with a bunch of fun colleagues.

YES! I reassured myself once more that I have indeed done the right thing. I couldn't possibly waste any more time given my qualification and the high hopes pinned by my parents and love ones. It's time I do something to prove my capabilities.

Now the question is...where should I start?